Last week, it was confirmed that I have a small cancer in my T12 vertebrae.
This changes everything. My primary (or early) breast cancer is now classed as secondary (or advanced) and as such, it is no longer curable. Instead, the plan will be to slow down it’s growth and stop it from spreading.
These are just words and I don’t yet know what they will mean for my health – this year, next year or the ones after that. I have been told that instead of chemotherapy, the treatment is now hormonal therapy. This sounds much milder, but it may be ongoing. Until I start the treatment, the doctors can’t tell me what to expect from it. Everybody’s body is different.
For me the greatest challenge with this news is to accept that I no longer have any certainty of the future or of my health. I may not know how I will feel today, tomorrow or next week – emotionally or physically.
I will need support from my partner, my family and my friends. For someone who likes to do things for myself, this is really hard, but I am learning.
I know I will be in your thoughts and that lots of good vibes are coming my way. I might need to bottle them and save them up for another day.